Disappointments..

I remember growing up the worst thing I could do is to disappoint my parents... Mom in particular. I could ignore the negative feelings when I had fights with friends or get over insignificant hurts caused by classmates... but when I let my Mom down, it was hard to get over. That sick feeling in my gut lingered for days.

Interestingly enough, now that I'm Mom ... the worst thing I can do is to disappoint myself. To not think highly enough of myself to make the correct decisions and ensure that others around me give me the proper respect. I abhor making mistakes and my occasional errors in judgment. I slipped recently and am kicking myself. Should I have known better? Definitely. Will I make the same mistake in the future? Nope. Am I going to tell everyone what that mistake was? Not bloody likely. lol But I will take this lesson and learn.

Hopefully my kids are desperately afraid of disappointing me. Let the cycle continue...