Our Little Secret
I've got to bitch and moan about something that has to stay in cyberspace. My husband is being laid off as of 6/30. Not good news, of course, especially since I don't work outside the home - for a paycheck, that is. He is very close to accepting a job, which is the good news. The bad news is that he doesn't want to do this job. It's not a good fit for him, but it does have the potential to be good financially. I feel bad. Really bad that in order to support our family he has to do something that probably doesn't suit him. I'm not talking "it's not much fun" ... it's in sales, and he's so *not* a salesguy. He's so damned smart and is rather high up on the management and salary rung, which makes finding another position tough.
I don't want to stress him out by bitching to him that I'm worried. I'm trying to suppress the angst I feel inside 'cause he just doesn't need to hear it now. I'm being as supportive as possible. But it's killing me. Sheesh. This sales job pays 1/3 of what he makes now in base pay, then more than covers his current salary in bonuses throughout the year. But he wouldn't get his first bonus for four months... which leaves us in a bit of a bind. I think we can make do, but it'll be tight. He's more of a "glass is half empty" kind of person, so he's really worried. I go back and forth - gee can you tell?
I'm hoping that it all turns out for the best and that he loves his new job and makes oodles of money and everything is dandy. I just had to unload on someone - being the positive one all the time is a drain.
Sigh....
I don't want to stress him out by bitching to him that I'm worried. I'm trying to suppress the angst I feel inside 'cause he just doesn't need to hear it now. I'm being as supportive as possible. But it's killing me. Sheesh. This sales job pays 1/3 of what he makes now in base pay, then more than covers his current salary in bonuses throughout the year. But he wouldn't get his first bonus for four months... which leaves us in a bit of a bind. I think we can make do, but it'll be tight. He's more of a "glass is half empty" kind of person, so he's really worried. I go back and forth - gee can you tell?
I'm hoping that it all turns out for the best and that he loves his new job and makes oodles of money and everything is dandy. I just had to unload on someone - being the positive one all the time is a drain.
Sigh....
posted by Lisa at 7:53 PM
2 Comments:
Hi, Lisa!
I wanted to stop by and say hi after reading your mom-in-law flash on the Crabby Cow site and also to thank you for your comments on my pieces. I think the dual set of feelings you have for your mother-in-law are totally natural, to be expected. Life isn't black 'n white, especially when it comes to family. They drive us crazy, but we adore them... I have many similar feelings, particularly about my adult daughter, mother of two. Boy, can I relate.
I'm so sorry about your husband's job. That stinks, so bad. I have lived under that shadow for years. Started with Kodak in 81, worked there for 17 years. They sold us to Heidelberg, who then sold us back to Kodak. We're officially under their umbrella again as of this week. Scary times. I love my job and know if I had to go out in the world now to find a suitable replacement that it would be very very tough. Best of luck to you and your family.
Blessings,
Aaron
Aaron, thanks so much for your sentiments. Working for a huge company used to carry such security. Not so anymore, sad to say. Sorry for your run-around with Kodak as well. We're doing well, though. My husband is starting to settle into his new job and conquer his techno-fears!
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